today was a bad day

Today i when to school late again ,and at first it was good i when to my class and then 5 and 6 period came long and everything twisted and turn towards the bad my 5 period techer told me the project i did wasn't a stilllife and i spend allot of time on it .I thought that was a waste of time so i ask to change class because i wasn't good at that and he said "if you tell yourself that then you will never do it" to me that dumb verse is not ture their are many thing we can do .Thats why theirs more then one personally and so i'm hoping i can change that class it's dumb and i'm tried of hearing the same thing over and over again. Will my 6 period teacher will their nothing to say because she doesn't help me at all . I begin think of droping that class to because it isn't worst what she put me throught i mean i got other class i have to worry about .Any her class is really hard and i can do it i'm sorry i try really hard but i can't my mind is some where else .But i stay after class i don't like to but i do because i need to even if i have other thing to do .But today i was going to stay but she when to a other student and irgone me will i can understand that she was probadly mad at me because i'm going to drop her class but still i was asking for her help and she didn't help why would i want to be in a class where the teacher doesn't help me . Will you know what i don't want to waste my time i have other class i need to finish and i need to do them right . I don't want to learn some thing wrong .And now i'm thinking maybe i should go to collage if i'm going to have to deal with teavhers like that i mean teacher remember when your were a student and you have six teacher all wanyting something and then on top of that worrying about the gangs and your parent and school and what every else that is on your mind. No teacher don't remember what it was like i don't want to hear about the old days i want time to do the work i'm fast but i'm not supermen eveb superman needs breack now and then .Out of the 4 months i've begin at gomper my body as shut down .Like i can't get up my back and mentally and psyhical i'm tried .I've gave up alot of my after school programs just to keep up but all work and no play and really hurt some one . I mean i nag is because i can'yt take the stress is i keep it all in i'm going to pop and it's not fair . And i now life isn't fair it's what you make out of it .BS!!!!!!!!!! Thats not true i believe why people get anywhere is because some one or people push them to move .But what matters when you got no one who believes in you .You started to think you can't do it and you try really hard not to let it get to you but you get tried and all you want is reast and then your so tried your a school work and friendships go ... So i'm woudering how do you balacnes it .Can you "i don't think so i think you die trying " my i right or no . People have done it plz give me the anote so i can do the same i can't find a balances i'm going out of my mind and every day i'm losing more and more because of school.Really school does nothing for me but kills your apirits and mind . But school is where i have to be . I know life isn't that hard i've seen the hardest it can get .But i still don't get the fact that people think it's .But school people and teacher men thats crazy i'm not use to it . Some of my teachers like em others don't they hate my guts and so far i can't tell which one like me and which one don't .The quiets are always getting A's and the loud one are getting F's but why.We need people who are comfortble with themselves and we need people who need people who are loud but then why do the shy ones get an A . I don't get it i work i work hard and yeah i nag but men with all the BS I go through men it's allowed . It's human natrual to nag but no when you heard some one else no you can't . Plz that mess and i've seen teacher that nag but when their students do or no it's like some one said a bad word and everyone is still. Men that Bs and i tried and themn people are telling me if your so tried stop going and trust me i would if i had the choice.Right noe education mean nothing to me . Nothing .Life it's self means nothing i really don't care about it but people are rrrrrrrrrrrrr. Will i want to apologize for all of my nagging but i need to get it off my chest because i was really piss when i cam home today for many reason . Tecaher they think we have easy lifes we don't not this generation not this day and age. Guns going off your fun we are more worry about what happen next in are area then school .We don't have a safe place so that matter are minds aren't . -Deanna