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Hey what's up i know i haven't written in a long time. So yeah but these couple weeks or day i'm not sure . When i last wrote. But anyways allot has happen i was really piss at luiz . And stevie ask me out but i told me no because we have different religion and he got mad. So now he's not talking to me so ... And then luiz said he was sorry. And now i'm so rrrrrrrrrrr. Because i broke another guys heart. MEN what is wrong with me. Why do i do these thing to myself. I always to this. Men i wish i wish that men i could change my life but men. Thats all i can say is men . And why i saw luiz on sun. and i want to talk to him . But i couldn't and now i'm thinking of stuff and i hate thinking. Yup and i was watching "How to deal". For those of you that haven't watch it .It's a chich flix and it about a girl that doesn't want to fall in love but instead finds herseld crashing into it. Head first. So yeah it about love. So anyway i was thinking of how her life was a like allot like mine. But instead of my guy coming back he just left. I agree with her "guy disapper thats what they do best"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. So yea anyways as you can see this week is confusing me and i'm wondering what am i surpose to do. And no one directing me i'm just trusting God and men it's crazy and i'm glad but alittle sceared because i'm always wondering if i'm doing the right thing. So anyways God is helping me with that. And no i'm just thinking about luiz and stevie and God. And how does this all play into my life. And WHAT AM I GOING TO DO IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. So anyways i got to